doll face

I finally did a new photomanipulation yesterday.. I had fun doing it too! I'm pretty proud of it, but it doesn't really seem that liked by everyone else, or it's just barely getting noticed. Oh well



Used an old picture from last year, and decided to experiment with it a little differently than usual. (no my eyes aren't usually that big.. haha)
Also inspired a bit by Andaria

I was smiling slightly in the picture, so I changed the shape of my mouth a bit to give it that put-on-smile expression people tend to use when they're putting a brave face on, when they're feeling differently inside. And with the eyes, I wanted to show that feeling, because eyes usually express things even when you're trying so hard to cover it.

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everybody's cleared the room
and they'll dress you up
stand you in all the right places
words like honey
smile as they change your faces
with no regard to you at all
and you find they treat you like a paper doll

(Paper Doll - Rachael Yamagata)

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sheispretty used one of my stock photos of Jon and I for a photomanip. I think it's beautiful what she did with it! But so is everything else she makes


the stock

I'm missing Jon quite a bit while he's on his band trip (it's only a week, I'm silly I guess), plus it's going to be our two year anniversary on Friday! (except we're celebrating it Saturday when he gets back..)


Anyways, other than that. Today I had a meeting with a local singer about a photoshoot. We're hoping to do a shoot together on the weekend after this one, if things go well. I'm pretty excited about it! She does electronic and techno songs you'd hear in a disco. Her myspace: http://www.myspace.com/jackieshawtunes

Sometimes I wish I had taken singing lessons or choir.. Stupid regrets. Maybe it's not too late. I like singing, I don't think I could do it as something professional though. Sometimes when I'm bored, I use my mac webcam thing and record myself singing. I don't know if I'd ever be brave enough to upload them though!


And also, on Monday I found out I was accepted in to the University of Manitoba Fine Arts program! :D

portfolio

I haven't really updated this in a while.. Every time I thought about it, I was like "well no one really reads it anyways". But oh well, I'll make a new post just for the fun of it.

A few weeks ago I finished my art portfolio for the Fine Arts program at the University of Manitoba. I got a call back today however, saying I can pick my portfolio up next week, and with it will be a letter telling me whether or not I'm accepted. The suspense is brutal!

Here's a snapshot I took of the pieces in my portfolio:


I haven't done much in the way of photoshoots lately. Just mainly self portraits when I find the time.

Tonight was extremely boring and frustrating. I hate being at home on a Friday night with absolutely nothing to do. Ughhhh. Basically I watched Juno for the second time today with my mum, then watched bits of Eastenders, and then sat at the computer and browsed various websites, went online Second Life for a bit. I wish I had pictures to edit or something, but I'm not going to even attempt to look through old photoshoots and see if there's anything worthwhile.

I hope tomorrow will be a bit more fun. I think I'm going shopping with my mum for a bit, before I start work at 2pm (I work at a diner, as a waitress). Later I'm hanging out with Jon & friends.

I'm hoping to get a monolight studio kit someday soon. A few more paychecks to go. I can't wait! :)

Anddd, most importantly, I GOT TICKETS TO NINE INCH NAILS! July 31st!! Jon and I are going with my friends Melony and Mike! I'm very very excited!

Recent photos:

Ow, my mouth is aching. I had my bottom set of braces put on yesterday, and ever since then my mouth has hurt! It's getting a bit better now though, I think. Except the inside of my mouth is all scraped up from the braces. Argh.

But anyways, I'm going to be in a fashion show! On the 27th!

Last year for Grad, I had a corset made by a designer in the city, and she called me today asking if I would model my corset and skirt for her at a fashion show at the Fort Gary hotel coming up this month. It's apparently a fancy event, and I'm kind of excited! A hair dresser and makeup artist will be doing my hair and makeup, so that'll be pretty neat. Sometime around noon they're going to give me a quick catwalk lesson. I'd better find some shoes I can properly walk in..

Grad dress:


I've been procrastinating, it's what I do best apparently. I really need to get started on my portfolio for the Fine Arts Studio Degree at university, but I keep putting it off. I need to do it soon! The entries can go in starting April 28th, up until May 9th. I hope I get accepted.

I started a photomanipulation yesterday, but I haven't completed it. It's a work in progress I guess. I have the idea in mind, I just have to find a way to get it out of my head and into the picture properly. I haven't done any photomanipulating in so long!


Some recent photos:

Last weekend

On Good Friday I went to church with Jon. I slept in a bit, so I had to rush to get there. Afterwards we hung around his house for a few hours. I fell asleep on the couch while he did some biology homework. Then we went to visit his grandma in the hospital. She's been doing very poorly, but there's always someone there with her. Later on we went to his family dinner gathering at his uncle's house. His little cousins were there, and one was just a toddler, so we had to constantly watch him to make sure he wasn't shoving something up his nose or in his mouth. Dinner was really good, and I had a good time, but had a headache and I was still really tired. After dinner Jon and I ended up passed out on the couch downstairs for an hour or so.

Not too much happened Saturday. I went with Jon to visit his grandma again during the day, and later we went to my house for dinner. In the evening we hung out with a few of his friends, played Winnipeg Monopoly, and watched the The Little Rascals. I love Buckwheat. So adorrablee. "I got a dollar, I got a dollar, I got a dollar hey hey hey hey"

On Sunday my sister, Melissa, and my nephew came over for Easter dinner. She labeled me as her entertainer all day and all evening haha. We played cards, I won of course. After dinner we watched A Series of Unfortunate Events. It was a really good movie, better than I expected! Then later on when mum went to bed, we watched LOTS of Coronation Street on my iMac.

My sister's dog, Missy, is so cute. She's such a little cuddly dog! Whenever I sit at the computer, she would jump up onto my lap and snuggle with me. My sister slept in my bed, and Missy slept in between us. I'm glad I didn't roll over and crush her! haha

A photo of her taken last year:


And then today, well technically yesterday (Monday), my sister and nephew stayed for the morning before they left, and we watched even more Corrie episodes! After they left, I hung around the house all day (no way was I going outside.. It decided to throw it down with snow today). I played a bit of Second Life, edited a few photos, and then watched even more Corrie episodes on my iMac. Later on when my mum was home, we had dinner and guess what.. We watched more Corrie! Except we watched the older episodes that she taped on tv. The ones we get on TV are around 9 months old.. But I've been watching the newer episodes on my computer.

I think I'm addicted.

Anyways, that was my weekend.



Recent photos:

Yesterday

Yesterday was crazy! I had so much to fit into one day.

Here's how it went:

• Woke up at 10am
• Went to the arena at 11:30am to practice, because there's free ice at that time (no one besides me and my coach were on the ice, it was awesome! no one to bump into)
• After that I ran to Don's Photo to pick up my print for the gallery, again (it was redone for the 3rd time)!
• My print wasn't ready, so I had to wait half an hour. I went across the street to Tim Hortons and had tea and a muffin.
• Ran back to Don's Photo, got my print (which I'm still not satisfied with the color.. but what can you do?)
• Ran home, got changed
• Hurried out the door again to go to my interview at the Zellers Diner (waitressing)
• Got there, parked the car, texted Kayla, got out, locked the doors.. And realized my car key was on the passenger seat. F****
• Went inside to do my interview, tried to work out in my head what the hell I would do about my car keys locked in my car.. But other than that, the interview went pretty good!
  
• After the interview was done, called my dad to ask if he had my extra car keys or if they were at home. He had them, and he was on his way out of the city in the truck to go to Calgary. Luckily he agreed to stop by Zellers.
• Dad came by Zellers in his huge semi truck. I ran and got the keys from him, and then ran home again.
• Mum came home, and then we hurried out the door again to drop off my print for the gallery.
• Dropped it off, and hurried back home.. but got lost a few times downtown because we weren't in the right turning lanes. ugh
• Went home, sat down for an hour, and went out again to the arena for my skating test.
  
• Had dinner there, did my test, thought I was going to pass for sure..
• Failed.
• UGH

I never want to do that much in one day ever again. I'm surprised I still have all my hair attached to my head.

Some new photos:

V-Day, Cold, Ugh.

So I've been sick this past week since Sunday. It just seems to get worse. My throat hurts, I keep coughing. I've drunken so much tea, but nothing seems to really help. I can't seem to sleep because of my throat, it bothers me when I lay down.
I'm still jobless, I haven't called back any places I've applied yet. I was going to start on that on Monday, but right now my voice is so raspy, I won't want to sound like a monster over the phone, so I'll have to wait until the cold is gone. Hope it won't be too late.

I haven't seen Jon in a few days now, since I've had a cold. His parents won't let him use the car for whatever reason, and I'm too sick to drive to his house. I probably won't see him on Valentines Day either. He was going to come watch me skate that day, since I have skating practice on Thursdays, but his parents most likely won't let him use the car that day either. So I'm pretty bummed about that. So far we haven't really spent any holidays together in almost 2 years of being together. *sigh*

Since I've been sick, I've played Second Life quite a bit in my spare time. I go to ACTIV8 often, they have costume events on every day and there's alot of fun people there. I won first place prize with my costume. It was an Angel/Demon theme tonight.

My costume:


I've been meaning to do something productive with the time I've been sick, like sorting through my old photoshoots and putting up some resource photos in my deviantART stock account, but so far I've just been lazy, drinking tea, and playing Second Life.

I might be getting some studio lights borrowed to me on Saturday to keep for a few weeks. Someone from the WPGPhoto forums I post at offered to lend me their extra kit to try out, since they have another one they use now. I'm pretty stoked about that. I hope Liz can model for me soon, so I can try them out on her. I haven't seen her in ages though, so I won't get my hopes up. She's usually busy with uni. I guess people will have to suffer seeing my face in more photos, since I'm the only person I can find to model for me half the time. I guess I'll have to be creative and change things up.

A few recent photos:

New iMac

So I finally got my new iMac a little over a week ago. It's so lovely and fast. The monitor is big and there's lots of space for image editing!





Oh and.. Jon and I got our hair cut last weekend. (My mum cut his hair a little more after this picture, because the hair dresser left it too long in the front and he didn't want the emo look haha)






I turned 19 two weeks ago now. My birthday was pretty fun, I went out for dinner with a bunch of friends. I was going to get a studio lighting kit for my birthday, except when we went to go check some out, we found out they were a little more expensive than I thought, and so I didn't end up getting any. I'm still looking though, I might get some used ones, and my parents will help me out with the money as a late birthday gift. Or if I'm working at Don's Photo, I'll have discounts ;)

I had an interview at Don's Photo at a downtown location yesterday, and I think it went pretty well. I'm really hoping I get that job. I would be working retail this time. I shouldn't get my hopes up though, I'm excited already. It's going to be a hassle getting there though. I might have to park at my boyfriend's house and take a bus downtown, since parking is very expensive and hard to find. I live just barely outside of the city, so I can't take a bus from home.

I've been procrastinating and haven't checked out any universities yet. I can't decide between University of Manitoba (Fine Arts), or Prairieview School of Photography. I should really call each school and see about a tour and information, but I keep putting it off. I'm too lazy for my own good sometimes.

Jon told me he might be going to Calgary for a year to take Nuclear Medicine or something like that. I've been thinking about it alot lately, I don't know how I'm going to survive a year without him. I'm still thinking about going to England for a year for University, because I could live at my grandparent's house. I don't know if I can do that next year however, and if I do end up doing it, Jon and I will be spending two years apart. Why are things so difficult? I wish I was still in the comfort of high school. Even all the gossip and mean girls in high school seem better in comparison.

I'm supposed to be at my boyfriend's house soon for a family thing, so I should stop typing in this blog and get moving. I still have heated curlers in my hair to take out. Go procrastination!


Some recent photos: